Know The Team Through BTS - Alisa
Therapy Sessions With Alisa
I am a human of many personalities. No,
I do not have a personality disorder, however my music taste does. Let me
explain it a little better, so I don’t sound borderline offensive.
My music preferences vary from rock to
pop, from pop to ambient, from ambient to rap, from rap to alternative…should I
continue?
I suppose my playlist would be a
perfect demonstration of how diverse BTS music is, so that even such an
indecisive person as me, who can never pick a favourite song, ended up having 8
go-to tracks that will forever have a place in my heart.
BEGIN
Would’ve been strange to begin
with a different song, right?
Now that you’ve all cringed at my
glorious humour, let me give you a quick rundown as to why this song holds the
first position in my playlist.
I discovered this beauty, while surfing
through past BTS albums. Being a fresher in the BTS universe, I obviously had
to do my research and listen to all the songs possible. I was writing, or
trying to write, an essay on existentialism and spiritualism in Abstract
Expressionism. The more I looked into that topic, the more messed up I felt.
Trust me, researching about The Blue Rider Almanac can f* you up (google it
later; it’s fun).
So there I was, absolutely exhausted,
both physically and mentally, and then, the best thing happened. I came across
the You Never Walk Alone album. Naturally, I clicked on the third song
of the album, because I am like that. The first 9 seconds were like a breath of
fresh air. I could feel the melody in my heart and in my entire body. My
heartbeat would slow down during the verse, matching the drums, and then would
speed up during the chorus. Great feeling, would recommend.
Everything after those 9 seconds, felt
like absolute heaven. You’d think I’m messing with you, trying to convince you
to love this song as much as I do. First of all, no one will ever LOVE it as
much as me; second, I already outlined you the perfect condition to experience
it in its truest form. All is left now is just press play.
DON’T LEAVE ME
I’m sure we all remember how shocked
the whole fandom was, when they released that 1 minute snippet of the upcoming
masterpiece that ended up shaking most of us to the core?
I’m one of those people, that if they
like a certain song, no other music exists for them. For at least 2 weeks.
The teaser was the only music I
listened to between the moment it was released and the day Face Yourself came
out. Yeah, you might be thinking: «But what’s there to listen to? The teaser is
not a complete song…blah blah blah.»
Now, to give you a better understanding
of my emotional state in that moment. Not only was it my first «comeback» with
BTS, but also, have you actually heard the song? Don’t Leave Me is an
absolute masterpiece: a beautiful blend of vocals and raps, a perfect
combination of violin and electronic beats…and…and…THAT DROP?? HAVE YOU EVEN
HEARD THAT DROP??
I’m telling you, it has one of the most
powerful choruses in a BTS’ song and it deserves to be appreciated!
TEAR
If you know me, you would know that I
am a rapline enthusiast. To refer back to the previous paragraph, I was having
one of my ‘only-listen-to-one-song-for-a-month’ moments.
Now Tear is an actual roller
coaster. If now I am not as affected by it, meaning that I can actually control
my emotions when I’m listening to it. For the first week or so, after its
release, I was a crying mess.
You must be thinking: «Oh, but isn’t
that just every Army EVER? Don’t make it sound like you’re special.»
Yes and no. When I listen to my
favourite music, I let it go through me. As weird as it sounds, that’s my way
of experiencing music. I form an emotional bond with it to remember the
specific feeling the song triggers in me. It’s my way of learning and trying to
understand myself and my own emotional capacity, and how I can deal with the
different variations of it.
It’s safe to say that, Tear is an
important contributor to my emotional growth and I am very thankful for that.
THE LAST
The most powerful track from the
Agust’D mixtape. The absolute cypher to all personal demons and self doubts. It
doesn’t get any more real and raw than this.
«My self-esteem that said I betrayed
myself is now my own pride»
It is a powerful story of learning how
to fight your own demons, that have been planted into your head by the toxic
influences of society. The song portrays a journey that opened up a door for a
happier future.
Despite the track being delivered from
Yoongi’s perspective, I am sure we can all relate to it on one level or
another.
TOKYO
One of the best surprises of 2018!
The piano arrangement at the beginning
just teleports you to a different space. A space, where you feel more relaxed,
more grounded and more connected with your emotions.
It’s a perfect song for moments when
you just want to be alone and one with your own thoughts. I personally, listen
to tokyo, when I need to recharge myself and strengthen my mental
health.
Also when I feel the anxiety creeping
up in public, be that in a uni library, a train station or a random street in
town, I would put tokyo on, to normalise my heartbeat and to isolate
myself to fully calm down.
DNA
Flashback to my 2nd Year of university.
Probably one of the hardest years in my life (said every 19 year old ever). It
was the year of the epitome of my self-doubt, constant questioning whether I
was doing the right thing, feeling guilty etc…You got the gist of it. I lived
from lecture to lecture, from assignment to assignment, from morning until
night; just a simple monotonous life, with no colour. And no matter how much I
wanted to feel better, the feeling of emptiness in my chest just wouldn’t go
away.
Then came DNA.
We frequently say that BTS come in our
lives when we need them the most, and I believe that this is exactly what
happened with me as well.
I was watching random videos on YouTube
and DNA came up in suggestions. Clicked on the video, watched it. Then
watched it again, and again, and again…and again…
I was hooked from the very first second
of that music video! No matter what people say about this song and how it
might’ve been their weakest comeback (which by the way is very rude and '‘HOW
YOU DARE’’), this song brought me everything that I was lacking in life.
And if it wasn’t for DNA, I wouldn’t be
who I am today.
BAEPSAE
A very socially aware song. This is
when I realised, that BTS aren’t here for jokes of it all. They are here to
prove a point.
Being a millennial myself, I find this
song extremely relatable and constantly end up having debates with myself about
the social structures and the difficulties of having a healthy and respectful
relationship with much older generations.
Also, the 1:29 gives me actual
goosebumps, every single time.
I NEED U (URBAN MIX)
The superior I Need U and you
can’t prove me otherwise. The velvety tone of the melody matches the mood of
the song perfectly. Have to say, acoustic Bangtan is the best Bangtan!
Now, dont’t get me wrong. I love a good
Chainsmokers beat, however with this particular song, I just can’t help myself.
This version is way more sincere, way more emotional and natural. And I feel
like it delivers the message better.
After all the piano cover of that intro
melody is the best thing that has ever happened here, so you can’t argue with
that.
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